Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Pilgrimage: New Year's Eve: Final Steps And Then Home

we have journeyed
hand in hand and side by side
blue skies and gray
somedays the road was too solitary to be borne
and yet I knew that somewhere in a pocket
a glass of wine
or a poem
you were there beside me
no pilgrimage ever ends
so long as heartbeats and words
are remembered







Friday, December 27, 2013

Pilgrimage: Last Few Miles: Closing the Trunk

put the ornaments away
drag the tree to the curb
blow out the candles
sweep the last crumbs from the floor
the year is closing like an over-due library book

Thursday, December 26, 2013

Anticipation's Night

The simplest signs
mark a path of marking
another sacred eve

necklace of families
squared, clasped hands 
emanating light

as we trudge or dance 
the periphery
as though

children again with 
no questions but
to follow


Friday, December 20, 2013

Pilgrimage: As We Reach The End: Soltice

one more night of Autumn then dark descending
that beautiful black with stars unending
hush the light is fading
smile the heartbeat breathing
light will follow beauty bending
while our hands and bodies are blending
Amen! Amen! Amen!


Friday, December 13, 2013

Near Solstice

so few nights left in this chill
Autumn one week and Winter
will be here and bitter weather will continue or not
we prepare
for snow
for wind
for rain
for shelter
for cold hands
for warm hearts

Saturday, December 7, 2013

Uncounting: Pilgrim Ground

Everything is frozen now
while I remember 

canyon shadow
eat the recall 

of unwrapping
jacket tied at my waist as if

wading into weather
the next step

white bite blanketed 
hallowground

Friday, December 6, 2013

Pilgrimage: Three More Weeks:Waning

we ate the last
bit of raisin bread
I baked it early this week
along with a plain white loaf
the simple deliciousness of it
fresh from the oven
or the soup I made on Monday
simple acts of thanksgiving make
me long for that sweet taste of the host
when bread meant Eucharist for me

Friday, November 29, 2013

Pilgrimage: Nearing the End: Stillness


last night''s deep stillness
opened a froth of movement 
shoppers drinkers of tea 
and me I walk 
past windows of books and tea towels 
smile at the young man on a skateboard 
and rush into Cole Coffee
the sacramental espresso
awaits us like a dream







Friday, November 22, 2013

Pilgrimage:: Almost There: Sixty Miles Per Hour

after last night's wind
pear and liquid amber trees
prostrate in the streets
fallen stripped and now dying
surrounded by yellow tape
and men wielding leaf blowers
in the morning breeze

Friday, November 15, 2013

Pilgrimage: The Mean

a city like Goldilocks
where walkers and bicyclists
share the streets with drivers
who seem frantic within their sealed
enclosures like tombs on wheels
while I with hands in pockets
stroll to greet my lover at the
coffee shop we visit
every day we watch the Liquid Ambers
pursue the change of seasons
green to red to gold
then bare except for spiny seed pods
before the early Spring
it's Autumn now although the weather doesn't know it
and everything
everything
is just right

Friday, November 8, 2013

Drought

lemon verbena leaves
fragrant in the best of times
now hang limp and dry
beneath the golden Japanese maple
I haven't watered in weeks
counting on the late Autumn
rain that has not fallen
day after day of gentle warm weather
greeted by those who worship
Apollo unaware that he will force you to abandon your wild dreams
drain the wine from the flasks
and leave you tossing on your bed
unwashed and thirsting for
one sparkling shard of ice

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Discarded Chair, any week, every pilgrim

I might have led a previous life
rested in this chair, stripping lavender
of its tiny spikes, pressing scent into wee bites of
muslim sachet pillows. 

I might have waited on the rain. I recognize the shape.
The wear.

Friday, November 1, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 49: Walking By



I pass two bookstores as I walk
home confronted by temptation
I understand that there is an industry
artists and writers working hard
to overcome
my empty pockets
my filled shelves














Friday, October 25, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 48: Sidewalk Café

She huddles under her coat
occasionally rubbing her hands
through her hair
there is grief there
sorrow
fear
I wonder why she's here

Friday, October 18, 2013

Pilgrimage: ¿Is it 42?: Driving to Salinas

I think of César and Steinbeck
what are the farm workers tossing on the conveyor?
Beets? Carrots? I don't know
the names of the plants got lost two generations ago
Grapes? Recognizable from years of vineyard tastings
Maybe it's leaf lettuce for the insatiable San Francisco foodies
I wish I knew the names of the plants
and the people who pick them

Friday, October 11, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 41: Cup

I seek wisdom in cafés
hugs from strangers
smiles from the blind
drinking draughts of sky
I spin on golden leaves
and take flight

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Pilgrimage: Big Sisters and Little

This slim golden hair, stepsister to 
the broad cottonwood, 
Cinderella aspen 
     holds the hill 
We drive here every year to see 

the blanket of the southwest
gold coin and ever green with occasional
spurts of blistery red, 
              I wear terrible shoes
to make the hike into sky but you
press me onward from behind
prince of a companion who spies

the small hearts

raining down

matchstick girl
with tools to clear the air
for chimney and for winter

withstanding

Friday, October 4, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 40: Bosque

it's a hard road we are walking
the sun shines down so fierce
I'd give my soul for some water
and they're cutting
the old cottonwoods down

they dammed all the water
in the Rio from the Grande
to the Mexican Bravo
there's only a sliver left of the Bosque
and they're cutting
the old cottonwood down

have they forgotten after a rain
the silver leaves raised to the heavens
as we sat hand-in-hand on the portal
and they're cutting
the old cottonwoods down

under the shade you see sky there
and birds that want to fly free
and lovers in awe of the mystery
but they're cutting
the old cottonwoods down

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Countless Nights: Pilgrim: Burning



Just around the edge of closing
white, we nibble to steal the time
that's passing so close to winter

pause to breathe in the sky
that's burning like an anxious
ocean above this Friday evening 

sunset landscape lit by storm 
that never comes but sends us
inside to light the first hearth

Friday, September 27, 2013

Pilgrimage: 39 Weeks: A Rose

Yes
We stood
Gaping
In wonder
A bud
Unfurled
White petals
Open
Ignorance

It is no longer
Summer

Friday, September 20, 2013

Pilgrimage: Golden Roses

I have searched for brown roses
their petals like old paperback
pages singed from within
fires burning silently
as we read brittle words
and forgotten photos

Friday, September 13, 2013

Pilgrimage: Vespa

If I were Icarus I
would fly down the street
on my Vespa
I would not settle
for wax and string
candles for wings
Italian leather rounded
fenders for me and metal
to the pedal

Friday, September 6, 2013

Pilgrimage: 36 Weeks: Gloom

they burn Zozobra tonight
gloom and sorrow
cast into the flames of tomorrow
while I at the opera wait
for the devil's delight

Friday, August 30, 2013

Pilgrimage: 35 Weeks: Bars

I remember coffee with whiskey sides
cigarettes put out quickly
damp rooms that were never warm
tasting words before we placed them in poems
tears on napkins laughter
and glasses of time

Friday, August 23, 2013

Pilgrimage: #34:Homeward


unchanged and welcoming
the cafe noisy
cheerful with expresso machine and grinder chatter 
we find a corner table
read the New York Times
sip coffee dark as dreams
and watch the store across the street














Pilgrimage: Week 34: Homeward


unchanged and welcoming
the cafe noisy cheerful
with expresso machine and grinder chatter 
we find a corner table
read the New York Times
sip coffee dark as dreams
and watch the store across the street
disappear














Friday, August 16, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 33: Gift

cinnabar spice and wine
red stones and blue
yellow grain white rice
pearls from the sea
amber incense and black tea
carried in fine woolen bags
then opened before the feet of love
and you are love and dear

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Driving

Pear tree, peach tree, apple.
Constellation with a name and one without.

You are transported. Guide branches and corn
rivulets.    I am driving there (in reach) to
white trailer in the weather.   You are absent.

Peach skin, pear bark, apples in blossom.

Throat sounds indistinguishable from
the name you were born with.


Friday, August 9, 2013

Pilgrimage: 32 weeks: Erasure

Were we to erase
The cars stiff and squat upon the road
Turn off each bright light
To leave the starlight glow
We could pull lace shawls over
Our shoulders
And rise to kiss the moon

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Pie, for Pilgrim Ashley


Peaches on the ends of branches
soften and fall
Critters in the kitchen cry for pie
Mom appeases all
Potty training reminds her
of the peaches,
ripening, peaches dropping
in the backyard
                          underfoot
the critters, all boys

The scent of fruit over ripe
Branches dropping, calls of
children, mother's mirror critters
thumbprints in the pie crust
Mama juggling utensils, extensions
of her arms, limbs for everything

Friday, August 2, 2013

Pilgrimage:31: Apricots

They're letting the fruit trees die
trunks blackened by burning days
without water a few push through 
green leafed edges
holding deadly desiccation at bay
some force of wind or tractor pulls 
the brittle body from the sandy soil
They're letting the fruit trees die

Friday, July 26, 2013

Pilgrimage:30 Highways: Profusion

the sunflowers in profusion
welcome July's ending
August high Summer is coming
in garlands of gold and grain

cantaloups ripen and peaches pregnant
with wrinkled stones hold next year's harvest
beneath the cloudless sky
we wait for afternoons of tea

and bared feet under wisteria vines
these summer days flaunt a gradual brevity 
against the heavy heat
that paints the mountains blue








Saturday, July 20, 2013

One Day's Collage

Woman with your head wrapped
in a beautiful white turban,
can you hear the
cellular traffic?
Men rebuilding fences, 
do you recognize
the lonely neighbor on the 
other side?

I drive up alongside
this pole stapled with hearts,
paper cut outs,
and wonder at its meaning.
Were they placed there
one at a time? Or did the family
come back every day to post
a new calling card? Missing
black doberman. Favorite
lake. One eye of a child.

In the restaurant there was an altar.
On it there was a palm-sized rectangle 
of green turquoise, a snapshot of a holy
mother, painted cloth, red lotus
on beige canvas. Six or eight prayer 
cards in a small basket. 
The one that you drew
said you must remember
to not repeat the same mistakes.

I suppose if this were my
message board, I would tack up one
heart on Monday, another on Wednesday,
and so on. I would wave a small invisible
greeting at the hitch-hiking woman with her
head down. And whisper into the ears of
the innocent men.


My card spoke of practice. 

Friday, July 19, 2013

Pilgrimage; 29 days: Doubled

we stride ever forward
like a pair of scissors rusted
but still able to cut
hearts into tiny ribbons
sometimes we make new clothing
often nothing but scraps and shards
still we are joined
by rivets of steel and bits of bone

Friday, July 12, 2013

Pilgrimage: July 28: Filling Time

nothing more golden
nothing sweeter
nothing faster
nothing reminds
nothing depends
nothing to declare
nothing to see
nothing to do but look in your eyes
nothing to do but love you


Friday, July 5, 2013

Pilgrimage: 27 After Independence : Waking

after five hours of fun
barbecue and sun
on the couch
unable to move
after so much
happiness

Friday, June 28, 2013

Pilgrimage: Midsummer 26: Leaves

diamond voices
quiet before you begin
your night recital
we listen as pages turn
hearts beat to your rhythm

Friday, June 21, 2013

Pilgrimage: Solstice 25: Deportee

these men unloading boxes of wine
speaking Spanish in voices like music
they laugh and work
do they know they are unwanted
that after taking
their land
their music
their art
their food
we say "Enough. Go away"?

Friday, June 14, 2013

Pilgrimage:Twenty-four Footsteps: In My Dream I Still Loved You

passion and then parting
the places we fly over
then the sandstone cliffs
red from iron rough
your kisses for a few days
you return to that place
riches and family schools
grassy yards near sand dunes
sailboats close enough to see
the iridescent balloons
as they release a trail of stars

Countless Days of Soot: The Pilgrim Imagines Climate Change


With the disappearance of acreage
comes a lens to the sky
orange center of destruction's
flower that we cannot
look away from
that covers our dressers
with soot
Nightly reports of what's left
standing as we listen for impossible rain


Friday, June 7, 2013

Pilgrimage; 23 Days: Eviction

the small flower shop
the shop is small
the flowers are the usual size
where each season's grace crowds
the pavement edge
will soon be evicted
It has done nothing wrong
the owner wants more money
the flowers will vanish at Summer's end
as flowers end

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Sense

I climb up onto the short wall to stare into the dry 
riverbed/arroyo that I sense is there below. Girl longing 
to find the secrets, to stalk the soft silence of nobody else.
And there the markings on a rock that mean nothing
and everything

Friday, May 31, 2013

Haiga

two mallards swimming
in the cemetery pool
silence is like that

Pilgrimage: Many and 22 Days: Roses



when the sun hangs
suspended in the afternoon
fog sliding between Tiburon
water and the Presidio
sometimes I find a rose
glowing against the gray
a passion unrequited
a fragrance unexpected
a moment of flame in mist








Friday, May 24, 2013

Pilgrimage: Twenty-one Weeks: The Bittersweet Café

we went there for coffee
chocolate zucchini bread
disappointment and tension
hovering on the periphery
the angry angels' tendons stretched
to breaking
we went to the Bittersweet Cafe for coffee
forgetting that we already live there

Saturday, May 18, 2013

Pilgrim: Keep Walking

What day is this on the abacus? What
song are they singing? 
I follow
the short man with the black beret
out of the gallery. He reminds me
of me as I keep 

walking. The artist

who drew one single naked woman into
the inner frame of every cartoon. 
Holding our short, clear glasses of 
white wine, we move from room to room, 
missing the friends that are more than
eleven thousand miles away, 
walking

drawing with the pictures of what
is right in front of us. one two three.

one  two  three

Friday, May 17, 2013

Pilgrimage: Twenty Weeks: Friday Fiesta at the Taproom

Natural IPA and a Beatles cover
I showed them how to dance the jerk
we ate burritos and watched the old Hippie
nod and smile as the taxman blared in our ears
and the baby smiled

Friday, May 10, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 19: Sunflower

the usual fog across the bay
we had sun
all light and no heat
we sat in the café
drinking coffee
laughing
and in love

Friday, May 3, 2013

Pilgrimage: Step 18: Heat Wave

sun opens
collars
orange shirts
and the tulips in buckets

iced coffee
wet rings
on slate tables
and cold throat memory

yellow tulips
on long stems
heads heavy
and open to beauty

late Spring
sidewalks
cool bare feet
and smiles without hoodies

Friday, April 26, 2013

Pilgrimage: Week 17: Fishing

we angle our lines
down the steam of bikes and cars
with old dreams for bait
nothing to do but stand
nothing to do but pray